Today you made the decision to drop grad school and really focus on your family. This was NOT an easy decision for you but you came to it after much thought and consideration. Look at your last blog post; the anxiety was already present. AND THEN...the accident happened. Your poor little baby boy was taken by ambulance to the hospital with a bad head wound. Minutes before that you were discussing with a neighbor how you were at a crossroads and waiting for a sign for what to do with your future. Then BAM, your kid was screaming...there was blood... and as you ran to get him you knew Lukas and your two little guys are all that matter. Thats when the game plan changed.
You can do everything but how well can you do everything? When you have so much on your plate it is almost impossible to do it all well. You know you wont let your kids suffer and you know you'll still kick butt at your job and grad school...so what loses out on your attention????
YOU!
You lose out on your health and stress will take over. While I believe you thrive on stress it is also taking a toll on your health (remember the 4 months of bedrest this past year???). If you are not happy with yourself it will also take a toll on your marriage. The next 2 years would have put a burden on Matt and your own health...not a good thing. In addition, you look forward to the days of baseball, soccer, basketball, art school...whatever it is the boys will enjoy...and if you are an administrator you will miss those. You dont want your kids to come home to an empty house or be stuck at before and after school for hours. You had three little ones because you love children, your children. You are a darn good reading specialist and making a major impact on those hormonal non-readers. Stick to what you know, do it well, be the change you want to see. But most of all be an extraordinary mom and wife. Love your kids and your husband...dont take them for granted.
YOU!
You lose out on your health and stress will take over. While I believe you thrive on stress it is also taking a toll on your health (remember the 4 months of bedrest this past year???). If you are not happy with yourself it will also take a toll on your marriage. The next 2 years would have put a burden on Matt and your own health...not a good thing. In addition, you look forward to the days of baseball, soccer, basketball, art school...whatever it is the boys will enjoy...and if you are an administrator you will miss those. You dont want your kids to come home to an empty house or be stuck at before and after school for hours. You had three little ones because you love children, your children. You are a darn good reading specialist and making a major impact on those hormonal non-readers. Stick to what you know, do it well, be the change you want to see. But most of all be an extraordinary mom and wife. Love your kids and your husband...dont take them for granted.
Yesterday my fortune cookie read...Be happy, stop trying to make happiness!
Self this is a reminder of how you came to your choice. When you regret it, look back and read this. And remember you are only 28...you have lots ahead of you and time to pursue your career later. For now, BE HAPPY!
Enjoying the Air & Water show...
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